While women here who complain they have been raped do not face the same ordeal, the principle of ‘put the victim on trial’ – as if they were responsible -- is very much alive and well. We are routinely accused of ‘lying’ about such claims – having such a high acquittal rate for rape cases must ‘prove’ that to be the case, after all – as if law and reality were somehow aligned when it comes to women’s rights. Women’s sexuality continues to be commodified through the mass media, and the legal process does not bring anything like the justice to which we are entitled. All too often, women are simply revictimised.
This form of betrayal – which is what it ultimately is – makes the possibility of love for those of us who are hopelessly heterosexual but painfully aware of these issues all but impossible. How can love exist between men and women in a society that displays such profound injustice? How will we know that our relationships are not tainted by the inevitable influences of society’s attitudes? Is it possible to find love amongst those who support such as system either by their active support or acquiesce?
A number of the men that I know who have thought of me as potential partners have, I am sure, asked if I am ‘one of them’, meaning whether I side with ‘my man’ or whether I will reject that system. It is, of course, slightly complicated by the fact that an intimate relationship is meant to involve love and acceptance. However, and here is the bind, does loving and accepting you mean closing my eyes and ears to the injustices faced by women, myself included?
Some women, like me, make a choice not to have relationships with men for this very reason. It costs too much. These relationships are inevitably tainted by the socio-political forces that make up our interactions. By the presumption of inequality, however subtly manifest. My pain will always be secondary to your pain. My ambition will always come after yours. Enough.